I read your recent post “This May Be Better Than God”, and I’m on board with you. For years I’ve been contemplating I AM.
Here’s how I do it. I break it up into two syllables, I and Am. Sometimes, to be honest, I never get past the I. When I say I, there’s a sense of boundlessness, bigness, infinity. As they say, “center without a circumference.”
As I share this story with you, I want you to get that I know I’m not confined to the form of my body. This is what happened:
One morning I woke up with one side of my body in pain. Allen, I’m talking from head to toe. I couldn’t put any pressure on my left foot. I limped into the kitchen, but double backed to the bed. “This won’t do.” It was really strange that just one side of my body could be in so much pain.
This went on all day long. But, Allen, I had an important engagement coming up in a few days. I had to be up to snuff.
That night I contemplated the words I AM and lingered on the I. Then I realized that I cannot be immobilized. Since I is not confined to this body form, I’s mobility cannot possibly be confined to this body form. It could not be impaired. Allen, I realized that if I’s mobility could be impaired, then the movement of the planets, waters, and winds would be impaired. After all, I is all.
I asked myself (got this from God is All), “Have the planets stopped moving?” I said no. Then my movements cannot be stopped. I realized that I am mobility. The next morning I got up and with just a mild pain went about my business free to Be.
All the while, Allen, I kept my thoughts on I Am not confined to my body. I Am boundless, free and infinite. I am not bound by my body. I can move. I Am movement.
Allen, I know I don’t have to tell you that by afternoon, I was going up and down the stairs, around the house and through the hardware store with perfect ease. Thanks for your blog.
Yes, it’s true. There is just one Presence, and this Presence is Existence itself. But more than that, reader, YOU ARE THIS PRESENCE.
This one Presence is Intelligence. It is Awareness. It is, as we say, Mind. Mind, being God, is Existence. To make sure we are on the same page of the same book, I’m going to rephrase what has just been written: The one Presence (You) does not have a mind. It is Mind. Did something click? Did you say to yourself, “I get it! I don’t have a mind. I Am Mind.”? Now we are on the same page, and we can have some fun.
We are going to play some Mind games. I did not invent these games. It seems that many people have played them for thousands of years. There are no special purchases, but there are some essentials. To play these Mind games you will have to pretend that God is not All. You’ll have to pretend there is not one Presence – not one Mind. These games are like solitaire. You don’t need a partner to play. Let the games begin.
This is a popular game among the dedicated and sincere. In this game you have to have a problem – a serious problem. To win, you have to convince yourself that you have a personal mind that is not the One Mind. Then, you have to convince yourself that the mind you have does not know enough Truth to “handle” your problem. However, there is someone else (a Practitioner, author, or guru) with another mind that does know enough Truth to handle your case.
Fill in the blank with any name you choose. To jumpstart the game, I’m giving you a few names you could put in the blank:
How many minds are on this list? How about your list? Each of these minds seems to have a little more or less light than the other. But more than that, they all have more light than you. The only way this game can be won is that you always have to be the spiritual dimwit – a dimmer light than everyone on your list.
This game is awesome. Not just for its unbridled dualism, but also for its self-aggrandizing pomposity.
When I am invited to give a lecture, a small group of people ask me to give a “closed class”. A closed class is for the (please don’t gag) “advanced students”. When someone asks me this, it implies “I and a few others are a tad higher in Consciousness than the rest. Will you have a class just for us?”
My answer has always been “No!” Reader, I’m going to spend a little more time discussing this game.
To play this game, you have to imagine God (the Infinite, Indivisible All) to be divided into levels of Itself. Then, you have to imagine that there are others out there on a lower level than you. Do you see any difference between this game and racial prejudice, gender discrimination, and other social ills based on supposed differences?
This is a dangerous game. PLAY AT YOUR OWN RISK.
I remember the joys and thrills I got from playing this game. It’s a game of self-deception. This is the only physically challenging game on the list. To play it well, you are constantly reaching up and over your shoulder to give yourself congratulatory pats on the back for “really” wanting to know God.
You will hear players of this game saying, “Every day I sit in the silence contemplating God’s Presence and Power. I never miss. I can’t wait until I experience my first revelation (or illumination).”
To play this game well enough to win, you have to start with the belief that there is a mind (not Mind) that is presently unenlightened. However, with enough sincerity, dedication, and silent moments, this mind will one day become enlightened. It’s all a crap shoot. It may happen, but most often, it doesn’t.
Again, reader, you are Mind. You are the very presence of Illumination. But, you have to sacrifice this fact to play the games. How long you play any of these games is up to you. “You are the light of the world.”
Every morning, and most evenings, Dorinda picks a book from the “spiritual” section of her bookcase. She opens the book to a random page and starts reading. She reads until she reaches a passage that stirs something in her. Dorinda reads this passage over and over, savoring every idea in it. Then, she closes her eyes and contemplates.
Dorinda says that the reading inspires her prayers and contemplations. She says the books anchor her prayers in spiritual principle, and keeps her mind from wandering aimlessly through a maze of insane thoughts. “But,” Dorinda says, “I don’t always reach for a book. Sometimes I listen to a tape or some audio file stored on my computer.”
This is how many people begin their contemplations, and I will not criticize. For many years I did the same thing. Reader, if you begin your contemplations like Dorinda, do you ever ask yourself, “When am I going to be as enlightened as the authors I am reading?” Do you feel like you are creeping closer to enlightenment, but never getting there?
The Truth is you are already as enlightened as any author you have ever read – even as enlightened as Christ Jesus. But, to experience this Fact, I am suggesting one simple and powerful act: Flip It. (I’ll explain later.)
Stop thinking that you have to reach outside of yourself for inspiration to start your contemplations. Your Consciousness is enough. No, you don’t have a personal Consciousness separate from the One Infinite Consciousness, but the Consciousness you have and ARE is enough. Trust it to be.
Reader, you don’t need to pick up a book from the night stand or turn on a tape to jumpstart Consciousness. Your Consciousness is not a car battery. It is Infinite, Constant Awareness. Start relying on your Self completely. Prove to your Self that It is ALL SUPPLYING FULFILLMENT. Prove to your Self that It is the inspiration you seem to need. Prove to your Self that your Consciousness is all the motivation you seem to need.
You know, like I know, that one day we have to stop reaching outside of ourselves for any kind of “help”. Why wait for that day? The help you seem to need is in you as ever-present fulfillment.
Earlier, I suggested that you Flip It. Here’s how. You simply contemplate first, and read last – if you still feel the need to read. At first this may seem awkward. You close your eyes and it feels like you’re watching a blank screen waiting for a movie that never starts. You wait, and wait. Nothing happens. A thought may flash across your mind like, “Allen is crazy.” Then you reach for the nearest book. STOP! Put the book down. Give your Self a chance!
Close your eyes again (if closing eyes is what you do) and reason this way, “Since there is only one Mind, one Consciousness, one Awareness, then the Awareness of the author and my Awareness IS one. The Truth that’s in the book is already present as my Awareness.”
Now settle back into your contemplation and watch how Truth effortlessly flows like a gurgling brook. Try this for two weeks. Even if you seem to have a rough start, most likely you’ll never go back to reading first. And you will see that “your” Consciousness is more than enough.
Someone asked me, “Allen, what is contemplation?”
The sibling question is “Why contemplate?” If the reason for contemplation isn’t fully understood, the what’s and how’s don’t matter. Spiritual contemplation is a calm inner looking at the Allness of God. It is Mind (God) beholding Itself. Contemplation is similar to the quiet, often uplifting, viewing of a great piece of museum artwork.
You’ve, no doubt, been to a museum and gazed at a piece of artwork. You observed the sweep of the curves, the colors, and the shading. As you continued gazing at the picture, you thought about the images in the picture. You noticed things. Without any conscious effort, thought followed thought. You saw new things you didn’t see moments before. More thoughts flowed. This is contemplation.
Take note. You were not trying to get anything out of this contemplation. You were not using it for anything. Not once did you think, “When I’m through looking at this, I hope my life gets better.”
You didn’t try to control the experience, did you? Most likely, wherever your eyes landed on the canvas, you simply basked in the beauty. You did not try to control the experience. And you certainly didn’t try to change the artwork. You merely observed and enjoyed.
This leads to the first point. Spiritual contemplation is a joy-filled experience. Spiritual contemplation is just “observing” the facts of God’s Allness – or some aspect of it. For example, you may find yourself contemplating the fact that, “I and the Father are one, and not two.”
As you “observe” this Truth, Consciousness reveals that there is no separation of time and space between you and God. The flow of ideas further reveals that there is no God and you. Ideas will continue to flow leading to the awareness that there is just I Am – no you, and no God. Somewhere in your “observation”, you will see that you are not a seeker of Truth, but Truth Itself. There is no such thing as what you should see in contemplation. There are no should’s in this observation. Ultimately, this experience is Mind beholding Itself, and its activity is Self-directed. It will always lead to a place of silence where there is knowing without the unnecessary weight of words.
When you gaze at a masterpiece, contemplating its beauty, what you see at one viewing will not be the same thing you see at another viewing. That’s how it is when you contemplate Truth. There’s always something new to see (perceive).
Why contemplate? As mentioned in the “Prayer Project”, all day long you and I seem to see and sense things that are NOT the Allness of God. You may seem to see a fight in the workplace. You may seem to see a sick person, a homeless person, animal abuse. If you are a news watcher, there’s no telling what hellacious pictures you’ll see.
When we see these things we tend to think about them over and over again. This, too, is contemplation, but how does it make you feel to continually think – contemplate – these lies about the Allness of God? This kind of contemplation is the illusory activity of a mind that seems to exist but doesn’t.
Spiritual contemplation brings our attention back to what IS. It has to. It is ISNESS beholding Itself. When contemplation of God’s Allness is just a quiet consideration of Truth, your very soul smiles. You feel good.
Contemplation is not an escape hatch from the seeming ugliness and messiness or daily living. And it’s a mistake to think that contemplation is impractical. Contemplation is the most practical thing you can do. Here are the benefits of contemplation:
Right now you might be saying to yourself, “How is contemplation practical?” Do you remember when stereograms had their heyday? These are large pictures that look like small, misshapen blocks of color. At first glance, you think “Boring!” But the directions tell you to continue staring at the picture, and when you do, your eyes widen and your jaw drops. Now you see a beautiful landscape that rivals a masterpiece.
At first you only saw random chunks of color. You kept looking, and then you saw a magnificent landscape. The landscape was there all along, but you had to keep looking. No effort, no labor, and no planning were required of you to make that landscape. You just had to keep looking.
That’s how contemplation works. It’s all a matter of looking and seeing. Contemplation is Mind’s way of looking (seeing/perceiving) the world (Itself). Where the first glance seems to show a picture of lack and limitation, contemplation reveals a new picture of abundance and plenty.
Perhaps your Body seems to show a picture of weakness and disease. Contemplation of God’s Allness sharpens your view. Now you see (and experience) a Body brimming with health and vitality.
And no work was done. No getting in there to fix and repair. Thus we have a contemplative consideration of God’s Allness as All, revealing (showing forth) God to BE ALL.
When once the infinite Omnipresence of Wealth is revealed, there can be no lack, limitation, or poverty. It is from this awareness of what constitutes wealth that the immediate supply for any seeming need is realized.
Wealth is Consciousness YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS FORMED. It makes no difference what aspect of wealth is the necessity of the moment, whether it is for health, home, money or whatever, your Omnipresent Consciousness can, and does form Itself into that which meets the need .
You can see from this that there is no such thing as a need. How can you need anything that is forever contained within your completeness? There is no separation between the essential and the supply; and there is no separation between the essential and the manifestation of the supply formed into whatever is essential.